The need to create.

My fingers itch. I have never had this sort of problem before, but that may have just been due to taking care of the urges before things started getting out of hand. I find myself painting things on an invisible canvas with my fingers. I have sketched ideas of art to bring to life. I see dances and paintings translucently suspended over the world around me. I have never before this time realized how closely my sanity is tied to creating, to art. I decided recently that I will take an art class as soon as possible, maybe next semester. I am fairly confident it is required for a theatre degree anyway, but regardless of that fact I feel I need to for my own psychological health. I so often feel the desire rising in me to make something, but without the skills that idea just adds to the pile of things I MUST do. There are times I can feel the utter NEED to compose something, anything. I can feel the urge in my chest, a whirlpool, waves, splashing in the cavity there. The hunger drowning my heart and threatening to overwhelm completely. I wonder if it is possible to get lost to these urges, this hunger, but I always just accept its presence and move on. I never have the time to entertain the idea of any course of action other then just to take a breath, feel it beating and swirling in my chest, and to live with it inside me. At times I wonder if this presence will prove my undoing or my preservation. Regardless of if parasite or benevolent burning, it is a part of me. It is a part of me that I am unaware of a way to live without, and am really not interested in researching a life without it anyway. So here I am, sitting at my computer, without the resources to form what my inspiration is whispering to me, fighting the urge to paint the air, and attempting to stay as sane as I normally am.

Shadow primer, Urban Decay vs ELF

This chronicles the competition I held between my two shadow primers, ELF - $1 and Urban Decay - $15 (on clearance due to being old style bottle) XL size. 

Also, I am going to apologize for my pictures being taken in different lighting. Also, I am using a cell phone camera. Deal with it. That is all.

Here we have the beginning product. As you can slightly make out, the eye on the right is slightly brighter then the one on the left. I am using CoverGirl's Gold Sizzle eyeshadow, something bright enough to be able to use for a comparison, but (hopefully) not so bright as to look awful should there be a huge difference between the two. The comparison shows that so far, and in my opinion, it is probably not worth the price difference.

Application is pretty similar as well.... Urban decay is a bit more creamy, but nothing too drastic.

Next is a trip to Gold's gym where I do Body Pump (basically cardio weight lifting) and Body Flow (yoga-y class). Two hours worth of sweating and let me tell you I am NOT in shape.

Do you see the creasing on the left eye? The lack of consistency? Whereas the Urban Decay has pretty much stayed in place? Now, mind you, this WAS after 2 hours of working out. The choice of which to get is all up to you and your lifestyle. I tend to be SUPER busy, and lucky if I put makeup on at all, so I want it to stay. I also an a huge fan of super bright colors, so I will continue buying Urban Decay. I will however also continue to buy ELF for the days my eyeshadow isn't so bright, or when it doesn't have to last through as much.

Hope this helps! :)